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I am again.

long ago, but the problems seem to pile up again. Slowly pisses me off that at all. I wish I could escape, somewhere. It would have been almost no matter where, off the main thing.

This way I damn bad. Since then I pulled her was my bad mood has worsened so much so that I can tell yourself: "I need help.".

"Be strong, be strong now!"

My in-laws I can since I do not like living here. I come with their nature do not usually clear. They complain only to do nothing but themselves. , Patrick and I have to constantly hear how lazy we last Michi (Patrick's brother) is sitting only on the PC and makes even less than we do. Patrick is referred to by his father as lazy and fat, which also tells some 3rd person on the internet, great father.

What about me? I am clear. I am of sound mind. Did rarely so clear, what I really wanted. I made a huge leap in my development. 've Become more mature adult. Nevertheless, depressed and helpless. I know so much, I am fully aware everything. But in the implementation it fails.

My daily routine is really just from work. I am at least 12 growing up to 14 hours a day, or the way before I even got a quiet minute. Currently, the clock is 5:30 bis 17:30. Then I get into it in about the first in the door and even if I did not have to wait for hours that somebody picks up or the like.
We live in a small town that is. We have no real connection to something central. The buses leave when they drive at all, as they want and very irregular. In this you can not leave you at least. So I am dependent on the cars of my in-laws.

So what? "They want me go only because they have to anyway in the cities. Rarely I drive myself and then they still want to do I pay the fuel.
Review: I pay 300 euros a month for a room that I share with my friend and dog (22.5 cm ²). Eating there are only things I dislike (except lunch, usually). Some a tough ham, I grad so give my dog would (save at each corner). In the winter we have not even allowed to turn on heating (save costs).
The list is forever long. As such, they earn less than 300 €.

My disease has not exactly improved. In this way I'm living here, I'm mentally So at rock bottom. I'm trying to come to the therapist, but as with 1-year waiting period, the holiday which have so constantly (yes, everyone deserves it, I know). I will not be considered important. However, I wonder what for?!

What do you get up every day and go away your 13 hours and come back and will be sulky. You did not even rest for an hour or 2. And the rest, then I have time, I use to fall into bed, because I am a man of at least 7 hours sleep needs.

I do it for my friend and for my dog. Although I must say that our relationship is suffering extremely underneath. I can not go all that. Every day a part of me dies from it. I hardly know again, I'm not. Once I've visited my parents, I was very different. I hate my life here, to me it is not even a life.

my hard earned money I offer in my dog and my friend. I have done for my birthday the first time myself a bit of luxury (headphones and MP3 player).
I know my friend does not need all that begs not ask. But I want to see him happy and that is to get this damn hard way.

A quiet day to go shopping with friend and dog, it goes wrong. Just like that. Because the exhaust pipe falls from cheap car, which they have purchased for 200 € and I wanted to turn on first.

"Too many, too many problems ..."

I wonder what real slow I'm doing wrong. Everything I try is to be happy. I'm not stupid, have a good conclusion. I have an apprenticeship at a company where some of just dreaming. I've grown a bit, see shit but not yet.

Yesterday I was listening to me then a dressing and was the first time again ICH. After long time, it was really strange. My character has changed so extreme. It's just become like putty, is formed and conforms to what is coming. I will not be. I never wanted.

"Broken inside ..."

His aunt gave me that is, the tongue-lashing. We have a storm-free, and therefore have eaten for 2 days raclette. Sure, it was a little dirty. But God knows the apartment is dirty anyway oO "

collects in the bathroom are 4 tons of dust, wash for weeks is simply dumped in the bathroom to wash someone. The kitchen sometimes sees from. You drop everything. Nobody gives away behind itself, but a behind everyone.

His aunt then started, it looks like hell here. (Well actually even better than usual, but no matter). We should clean up immediately. I only said that we do not have time because we have to dog school. Then began the war. My sound did not fit her, finally the sound that suits me. Which I've missed for so long. We therefore introduced
war, well I should be right. I've always been good at something.
She said I do nothing in the budget. I reminded her of Michael, who sits just in front of the PC. Then came the excuse "It is only 16 ". Then I thought both Patrick and I have as much at 16 more than he made;) Then they came
so I'm currently nothing. I asked them when I do something, I'm (Have you called the times from the top) from morning till night away. She began as assistant Rewe (Seller and Lageristing ... sorry I laugh but I find with such a job can not afford that) they from morning to evening 7:30 working at half 10th CLEAR XD I know just how it works. She works in shifts, just like my mother. Of the working hours, not exactly but still SOO shifts. Say morning - noon or noon - evening.
Then I mentioned that we have to leave. We have spent many as 150 € for the dog school. Then she started when, why do not we go up to the dog place. Did I say shit, the dog school, because there we should Inuki Roppen neck. Then she said that her mother was also there and it was soo good, yes. I was then louder and you liked my tone at all. Itches me, my dog comes first. So I said, "Well, if YOU want to, I take my dog on the neck, because he gets no air or I hurt his windpipe and he kicked the bucket here, I like doing it. " She became angry. In retrospect, I think about it, I would have the time to laugh, no matter.

All went on for a while. I said I have mental problems, I can not do it. She thinks I should leave instruct me. Then I came'm 20 I have to clean up for all 3. She asked me 3 times my age. My face I'm standing here alone, that they did not make it to this day. She goes to her sister's good cry, which lives a dump on. It is that simple is not with me. Then came the
I belong to a family and must act accordingly also. Then I explained to her that this was not my family. The Patrick my friend is here I subtenant, nothing more. I put no value on being a family member and the prejudices they tell me due to 8 months and blasphemous eien behind my back does not even approach way. Then she says I belong automatically to the family because I love Patrick.
Well, why do not behave like one? Your family teaches you, not Michelle. Your family speak against their own children. Expected of them so extremely much ..

etc. At some point I'll be in the room, because we have to leave. She shouted after me something. We should learn to behave ourselves three or so. I just said "YES WE THEN 3 TIMES WITH RED STOP MICHI" and only "I HAVE ALREADY. I replied, only a "GOOD".

Now I feel stupid this case is not from the head. I do not do much, so what? I'll clear off my stuff. I'll clear it to others afterwards. And when his parents return, it will be the way they left it. I know how I am and must listen to me constantly, "You Both will be in an apartment my face the dirty blah ". Yes we have only time ne home for a week had for us and was so clean, we all surprised. That is to say that with my Mum and my Sister, because they are both very fussy when it means something clean should be.

I then just made a little lower, but it's just disgusting. It was an onion peel in the bathroom with blood on the floor. A pot of moldy potatoes in the kitchen because his parents have not emptied prior to departure (As if that was someone would eat). I wanted to waste away and brought the kitchen clean up. Super, the dishes from the dishwasher was not even begin to clean ... Bah!

Do I have to make me really blame?

In my opinion only because I've changed me so much that I do not know myself. Not even everything I am. I would pack my 7 things, my friend and my dog and so far it is away from this nightmare. But how? He can not do much, he hands are tied because he still has no income and I do not just enough for 2 people.

I could write for hours about it looks like in me. But I do not even if anyone is interested, someone would read.

I guess today will change a lot. Previous change.
I will not be made small. I will not be workable, non changeable. I have established over 18 years of my character. Den I let me once again take.

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can not find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind
She can not find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from grace
She's all over the place

Water Feature Kill Bill

excerpt from a forum

Dear User,

I have the following problem. I've since started as a training 01:09:09 Fachinformatikerin. The year 2009 was not necessarily good for me because in there with me (fortunately) benign tumor was discovered, but was not operated on. Have the basis of all investigations and interviews 200 km further away then have to cancel my high school because I could not be evaluated. Have the basis of which "only" my diploma.

Back to the topic. Since I'm in training I have extreme problems with the sick days. I have since I was 12 years old have chronic problems with the stomach (nausea, about cramps, diarrhea, etc.) which can be aggravated by stress. I get colds easily, have almost always inflamed in the blood, iron content in the basement and circulatory problems [all-to say nothing of such serious days, for use with incontinence pad 19 is a must ].

Accordingly, I have already because of my days at least 2 days a month where I was missing, because I hardly get out of bed.

yes I live in the house of my in-laws, which is not suitable to adequately sealed. This means that it runs like this pike soup. Although even the extra outer shutters are down it takes, you have overnight then more neck pain.

I have now because I miss a cold and still own complaints have been over 40 days of absence. This is not to be wild, as my instructor said, because every time a certificate was present without exception, but it does not stop easily.

I have now the requirement that a certificate must be available (previously did not have to have done everything yet) and I have it also be present, but I'm still with each disease. Have very bad cold since Monday (almost flu), but was Mondays only on sick leave. It was from and then right again, then it got worse. one I've got nothing more (pressure on ears and forehead), neck pain, then very strong cough (Saturday so strong that nausea occurred 7 times just because of cough), I can not concentrate, colds, circulatory problems [almost tipped over] and I is simply not good. [With all the stuff tried: 2 different types of cough syrup, nasal spray, tea with fennel honey, tea with Rummel, Grippostat, Apsirin Compact, milk with honey, expectorants, cough drops to diarrhea, drink a lot but nothing helped [my sister same symptoms received antibiotics ... Nothing at all .. I]

I would not miss, I'll do things not on purpose I do not know what to do slowly.
I had Thursday and Friday (holiday) is free, so the disease there was not bad. The cold is again subsided a bit so I would say to themselves, okay so I can grade work in a way but I have morning when I go to work again 20 minutes - for 30 minutes in the cold (unvermeindlich), probably in the afternoon again, let alone that I am not now doing well.


I do not know what to do. My colleague says health is sick, I have only Fear this could happen if I once again missing something with my training.
My instructor also said there have been worse cases and I need to make me not worry, I just do not know whether this is connected with absence and tests, etc. at the Chamber together.

health is going really, I do not just simply what should I do
I have the feeling in my life, everything goes wrong (in a very short time more than 3 deaths (including a alcoholics and a grandfather of 5 different types of cancer), an Important Person brain tumor, fortunately survived, my mother with uterine cancer, my father with sugar, gout, hypertension, mother, then extreme high blood pressure, friend problems with the stomach, etc.) am
I emotionally very unstable, has never been strong and there is always something .

I just do not know how I get my life under control '(


excuse for a good cry,